Wow!!!

Rob thomas wrote this for his wife who suffered with Lupus. She is slowly recovering.

This song hits so very close to home.

I am so happy that his wife is doing much better. Maybe one day I might too!!

Have Tissues....

Light at the end of the tunnel?

Still looking for it...crawling to it...reaching for it. Is it really there? I always tell my friends when they come to me looking for hope it is there. 99% of the time they come back and tell me they found it. So, where is it for me?

After the MS walk I was sunburned, tired, and felt better than I had in a long time. I had almost ten whole days of feeling good. Guess that is all I am allowed at any given time. For the past 5 days my legs do not want to function, my head feels as if there is a fog inside and when I turn my head it feels like I might pass out. My hands are numb and I am crying at everything.

I should probably just be used to it, this is my MS. This is what happens to me. So deal with it right? hmmmmmmmm not so much. Why should i deal with it, why should i accept it?

My son is sick and my dd is coming down with something. I cannot get them to the doctor so hubby will have to take time off work and do the job i am supposed to do. Driving is not 'good' for me when I am down. So, what to do???

I'll tell you what to do. Go with what my body is telling me and rest. I do not want to let my doctor know as he will have me in the hospital and that is not an option for me. So, I will rest and hope for that light. I will rest and hope for a better day. I will hope the day sometime soon where I can make some new things for my shop. Numb hands and jewelry design do not mix!! lol This is where the depression lies. I cannot be the mom I want to be or create my jewelry.

So, I will keep an eye on the horizon and look for that light...I will find it!
Blessings!

When the world says give up, hope whispers try it one more time!

Respect the NO!! please

In a world with 'get thin quick' pills, supplements, herbal this and that...Respect the NO!! If your item works for you GREAT! But, if I say I am not interested...I am not interested!! Stop and move on please!

I know what works for me, just as you know what works for you. We are human beings and we need food, real food. We do not need sugar substitutes and drinks and all the odd supplements. We do not need fat free, sugar free...might as well call em health free. Really, think about it, processed foods in your body...how do they process them? hmmmm

I take the vitamins I need for my body and eat the foods that are right for me. I know my MS and frankly some of the 'miracle' things out there are toxic to my MS. I do not need an immune booster, that is my already my problem. You cannot cure my MS, as there is NO cure. I have an auto immune deficiency, some of the 'miracle' things can hurt this. I do not eat soy, gluten, or certain beans and nuts. They are BAD for me. Milk is not my friend either.

I try to be nice, but some selling these products can make me crazy. Please, do what is right for you, but do not tell me what is right for me, as you will be wrong!!

My hubby has researched for 2 years now on the ways to help me and my MS. I lost 20 pounds my way and felt awesome!! I ate real foods with real fats and real sugars and light exercise. Minus the gluten! So, it worked and is working for me. I am so very happy your way works for you. Now plz, end it!!

Life is not about diets...it is about a healthy 'diet'! There is a difference.

Remember, many of these 'miracles' are dangerous for people with certain disorders. Be very careful when you push your wares.

Realize too, these drinks, pills, etc are made and processed into what you take. Really, how natural is it? I'm just sayin'...

I feel about airplanes the way I feel about diets. It seems to me that they are wonderful things for other people to go on. ~Jean Kerr, "Mirror, Mirror, on the Wall," The Snake Has All the Lines, 1958

Knocking Wood!!!

I have been feeling pretty good since the walk/roll. lol I get nervous saying it though as 'PoOf' it may go away! I figured since the sunburn and the whole day at the walk I would be totally zonked and feeling tired etc. It was a lot for me, yet it seems to have been a good thing. I'm thinking my body NEEDED the sun. I do not 'do' the sun much anymore, and miss it so. The only issue I have been having is leg swelling, which gets to hurting. I know it is from sitting for so long in one position while making my jewelry and things. So, basically I can live with it, as it means I am creating again.

I added some new supplies to my shop here: http://mztracyr.etsy.com I tend to over-buy and since I do not like to make more than one of most things, I get over stock.

I got some new things added to my shop as well: http://afabulousflair.artfire.com I am very proud of my new things. It can be hard to make certain things for me. Where it may take someone an hour to make something, it will take me two. I drop things all the time, my hands shake, etc. But I will keep at it until it is finished. So, when you buy from me, you know it has been made with complete love and care. I am also anal...lol!! I keep hand sanitizer next to me and use it after each piece is made. Then once the piece is done, I wear surgical gloves to polish and clean it and take the pics of the item then place it in it's organza bag. My gloves are cool, they are blue!! lol

The only items that will be alike are a few of the awareness items. When it comes to jewelry, charms etc, I think it is cool knowing you truly do have a one-of-a-kind. I may use the same beads for things, but never the same design. So it is highly unlikely you will ever meet someone wearing the same thing! lol

So now I am off to create some more new things while I am feeling well. I never know from day to day how I will feel, so I am going to seize the good days!!

Blessings to all!!

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort. ~Herm Albright, quoted in Reader's Digest, June 1995

Whatcha gonna do?

So today I feel ok. It seems to come in spurts lately. Feel good for a couple days, then BAM the yucks creep back in. Is it my MS progressing, is it the colds going around? Not sure, so just taking it as it comes at me.

Got my guitar out and i am once again going to try and play. I had put it away as my hands are not strong enough anymore to push on strings. I figure even the strumming is ok for me, so back to trying again. I played in college and loved it, so going to get a couple books and try and play again. Guitar is the best sound in the world.

I am loving my new van. I have even gotten out a couple of times on my own. It was so very cool. I can only drive on days i feel really good and when my legs are strong. We are going to look into hand controls as well. I really do not want to lose my driving ability. I love driving!! It gives me a sense of freedom that has been taken away from me.

Well, time to get ready to go to the grocery store with the hubz. That is if i can get him moving!!

Will it ever end??

I have been MS sick for a week or so now. I am so tired of being sick and tired. My body is numb, I have the inner shakes going on and the outer leg shakes. I get the dizzies if I sit for too long, and the serious back pain pain if I lie down for too long. I'm thinking hanging by my feet upside down might work for me!! lmao

But, I'm thinking it is my bodies way of saying slow the frick down. Chill for a bit and rest and sleep. The dizzies are just no-med freebies. lol

The bright side...my 4 mo old puppy Dexter 'Killer' Morgan Radford:

He is the sweetest thing. He is so smart and such a good boy. He is a chihuahua mix of some sort. I swore I would never have a 'YIP' dog! lol I swore off 'lap' dogs...but oops, now I have one. He is so tiny. I call him my mini-pit. I swear his mommy must have had relations with a red nose pit. lol Can you imagine!? I got him from Halfway to Home Dog Rescue. How could anyone not want this baby? Oh well, their loss is my gain. He is such a cuddler too.

Anywho, getting a tad dizzy again, so I am off.
I joined that twitter place thing, name mztracy. Original eh! lol

Blessings to all..

Quote of the day: Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing. ~Redd Foxx