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This is Beverly's blog, my interviewer. She is an awesome knitter. You should check out her etsy store. She also added a lil diddy 'bout my interview in her blog. So far I am the number one interview. woo hoo She is an awesome interviewer. Also check out handmade news to read more of her interviews.
Monday, May 4, 2009
After the MS walk I was sunburned, tired, and felt better than I had in a long time. I had almost ten whole days of feeling good. Guess that is all I am allowed at any given time. For the past 5 days my legs do not want to function, my head feels as if there is a fog inside and when I turn my head it feels like I might pass out. My hands are numb and I am crying at everything.
I should probably just be used to it, this is my MS. This is what happens to me. So deal with it right? hmmmmmmmm not so much. Why should i deal with it, why should i accept it?
My son is sick and my dd is coming down with something. I cannot get them to the doctor so hubby will have to take time off work and do the job i am supposed to do. Driving is not 'good' for me when I am down. So, what to do???
I'll tell you what to do. Go with what my body is telling me and rest. I do not want to let my doctor know as he will have me in the hospital and that is not an option for me. So, I will rest and hope for that light. I will rest and hope for a better day. I will hope the day sometime soon where I can make some new things for my shop. Numb hands and jewelry design do not mix!! lol This is where the depression lies. I cannot be the mom I want to be or create my jewelry.
So, I will keep an eye on the horizon and look for that light...I will find it!
When the world says give up, hope whispers try it one more time!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
I know what works for me, just as you know what works for you. We are human beings and we need food, real food. We do not need sugar substitutes and drinks and all the odd supplements. We do not need fat free, sugar free...might as well call em health free. Really, think about it, processed foods in your body...how do they process them? hmmmm
I take the vitamins I need for my body and eat the foods that are right for me. I know my MS and frankly some of the 'miracle' things out there are toxic to my MS. I do not need an immune booster, that is my already my problem. You cannot cure my MS, as there is NO cure. I have an auto immune deficiency, some of the 'miracle' things can hurt this. I do not eat soy, gluten, or certain beans and nuts. They are BAD for me. Milk is not my friend either.
I try to be nice, but some selling these products can make me crazy. Please, do what is right for you, but do not tell me what is right for me, as you will be wrong!!
My hubby has researched for 2 years now on the ways to help me and my MS. I lost 20 pounds my way and felt awesome!! I ate real foods with real fats and real sugars and light exercise. Minus the gluten! So, it worked and is working for me. I am so very happy your way works for you. Now plz, end it!!
Life is not about diets...it is about a healthy 'diet'! There is a difference.
Remember, many of these 'miracles' are dangerous for people with certain disorders. Be very careful when you push your wares.
Realize too, these drinks, pills, etc are made and processed into what you take. Really, how natural is it? I'm just sayin'...
I feel about airplanes the way I feel about diets. It seems to me that they are wonderful things for other people to go on. ~Jean Kerr, "Mirror, Mirror, on the Wall," The Snake Has All the Lines, 1958
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Sometimes I wonder why we even blog. My life is not very exciting...some blogs I see are not all that exciting either. lol So, why do we blog?
I tend to blog when bored, angry, or upset. It is my way of getting it out so as not to internalize it. Does it bore people? Most likely yes. lol Which is why it is good that we have the choice to read it or not.
At one time I worried what everyone else thought about me. Was I pretty enough? Was I thin enough? Was I the kind of person people would like?
I realized in my mid 20's, it did not matter what anyone thought of me, but only what I thought of myself. So, now, I do not really care what people think of my blogs or anything else about me. I am who I am and am very open about that.
Sometimes I read other blogs and wonder if some of these people are for real. This is the Internet and it easy to be someone who you are not. I have come across a few of those in my 12 + years on the net. So, what do we believe and who should we believe? Does it really matter? The majority of those people you will never meet in real life. So if not being who they are, without hurting another, is what gets them through the day then does it matter?
I am not able to live a fictitious life. So for me what you 'read' is what you get. lol If you like it great, if not it's all good.
So here we are...uneventful weekend, uneventful blog.
Stayed tuned as we never know what tomorrow will bring!
I had the blues because I had no shoes until upon the street, I met a man who had no feet. ~Ancient Persian Saying
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I added some new supplies to my shop here: http://mztracyr.etsy.com I tend to over-buy and since I do not like to make more than one of most things, I get over stock.
I got some new things added to my shop as well: http://afabulousflair.artfire.com I am very proud of my new things. It can be hard to make certain things for me. Where it may take someone an hour to make something, it will take me two. I drop things all the time, my hands shake, etc. But I will keep at it until it is finished. So, when you buy from me, you know it has been made with complete love and care. I am also anal...lol!! I keep hand sanitizer next to me and use it after each piece is made. Then once the piece is done, I wear surgical gloves to polish and clean it and take the pics of the item then place it in it's organza bag. My gloves are cool, they are blue!! lol
The only items that will be alike are a few of the awareness items. When it comes to jewelry, charms etc, I think it is cool knowing you truly do have a one-of-a-kind. I may use the same beads for things, but never the same design. So it is highly unlikely you will ever meet someone wearing the same thing! lol
So now I am off to create some more new things while I am feeling well. I never know from day to day how I will feel, so I am going to seize the good days!!
Blessings to all!!
A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort. ~Herm Albright, quoted in Reader's Digest, June 1995
Monday, April 20, 2009
The only set back is the sunburn...i figured we would not be long, hmmmmmmm i live in the desert!! DUH me. I did not even think about sunscreen. My arms will be paying for this for a bit. They hurt so flippen bad...thank God for aloe!!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
I was pissed, sad, angry, irritated, and not fun to be around. I am 99% of the time the type of person who laughs and makes jokes about my MS. Yesterday I had enough of it. First, do not give me the God only gives you what you can handle shmeel!! It does not say that anywhere in the bible, TY! If this was true, then he is a cruel God. I suffer, my kids suffer, my hubby suffers thanks to this disease. So please do not go there.
So, the 1% anger and frustration came on hard. I had the pity party of a lifetime. It was excellent!! lol
For me i get angry because my abilities are going much too fast. I am progressive and that really pisses me off. One time I was upset and asked why me? Some incompetent buffoon said, 'well why not you?'! WTF...then why not YOU?! Please, never say that to someone who has a health issue or other disability. Usually it is the person who has no clue about it and has gr8 health! SHADDUP please. Pray that YOU are the never the one it happens to.
Losing your ability to walk, bathe alone, get out of bed by yourself at 45 is not what my life was supposed to be. My mom and sister should not have had to fight Cancer, and the list goes on.
I try and do all the 'healthy' things for my MS and my body. NO DIET Drinks...no DIET crap of any kind, as all the aspartame and fake substitutes are really bad for AI disorders. I try to go as gluten free as I can, no preservatives, good REAL food, etc. So, yes, I do ask, WHY ME??
I had someone tell me I willed it, my faith was not good. WTF...this told over the net as if she had said it to me straight, my shaky hands would have knocked the shit outta her!! The book the secret!! Excuse me, if you people believe anyone wills this crap by their thoughts or how they live...YOU need help!! The writer of that book probably got up one day and said, 'hmmmm how can i make a crap load of money talking out of my arse?!" I pray no one close to him/her ever gets chronic debilitating disease. What r u gonna write about then??!!
HA! I feel better...not great, but better! And for those who use handicapped parking that do not need it...Karma WILL come back and bite you in the butt hard one day. Maybe, you may even end up truly needing the space one day! HA!
I'm out!!! Aren't you glad!! lmao...
It's always been and always will be the same in the world: The horse does the work and the coachman is tipped. ~Author Unknown
Monday, March 30, 2009
Hey Tracy, I came across your profile on ArtFire, and I would like to feature your work. I'm part of a new project, Us Trendy, for aspiring fashion, accessory designers and artists. I think your handmade items are great. We are also connecting designers and artists to buyers and retailers. If you are interested then: you sign up, upload your work, and then let me know so I can be sure your work is highlighted and properly featured. Also, we have a store that you can sell your work in. Let me know when your work is up (email: xxxxxxxx) so I can feature it on top of our fashion page. Check it out at www.ustrendy.com. Let me know if you have any questions- Thanks! :)
I am not dumb and I am sure this was sent to alot of people, but it still made me feel good. I joined up there and it is kind of cool. My only problem now is finding enough hours in the day to handle all my sites. lol hmmmmmm thinking I take on way too much sometimes. But, it keeps me out of the pubs!! lmao
So here is my Us Trendy: http://www.ustrendy.com/a-fabulous-flair/
if you have a minute drop by and leave me some 'stars'...5 would be nice!!
If you join up too, tell them tracy from a fabulous flair sent ya.
As always...Blessings to all!
Art is the only way to run away without leaving home. ~Twyla Tharp
Saturday, March 28, 2009
So, Ashley has forbidden me to sit too much today. She gets very nervous when she this stuff happening to me. So, she has just informed me that I have been sitting for long enough and now it is time to lie down and put my legs up!!
She is so very cute!! So I am off for a bit. Will be back later on!
The family is a haven in a heartless world. ~Attributed to Christopher Lasch
Friday, March 27, 2009
I can never seem to find the time to just sit and make jewelry. I get so caught up in organizing it all that by the time i am done with that there is no time left. Then when i have the time the motivation goes buh bye!
We are still waiting to find out if the actors will strike. They and the producers need to make up their greedy minds one way or another. So many are losing their homes due to the BS between the two. The actors are not working much while the 'talks' go on, so there is no work for all the 'little' people and they are suffering. While the actors live off residuals and have health insurance, all the people that make it possible for them to work are hurting. I would love to see the 'actors' rigging their own lighting and doing set design. PUHLEEZE!! Drop a light on em I say. My good friend is about to lose her home due to the slow work. Her hubby is a driver for movies etc. They have 4 kids for God's sake. Get over the greed, and get back to work!! They are really pissing alot of people off!! Get in new actors and get rid of the old has beens...
And why the hell are the bank presidents that screwed us still in command? Why do they have their jobs still?? Fire their asses and hold them accountable!! As for Congress...what the hell are you doing to our country?? I cannot even talk about the incompetence of many of them. Taking from our seniors, our kids...they should be ashamed. Stop lining your friggen pockets and do the right thing. AS IF that will happen. The greed and the power of our politicians is so disgusting. They go along with out Insurance companies and drug companies. How the hell do any of these people sleep at night?? Probably like babies, as they do not give a shit about those they work for!! Our fore-fathers are certainly turning over in their graves. WE the People for the People...
Please President Obama, save our Country and show the strength you so spoke about. Do not become like them. Get rid of those that wish to only line their pockets and watch the 'people' suffer from their ivory towers!!
PHEW, that felt good. Sorry to ramble...
Politics, it seems to me, for years, or all too long, has been concerned with right or left instead of right or wrong. ~Richard Armour
Saturday, March 21, 2009
People do these things all the time, but do we really hear about it? Not so much. Why? Because kindness is not news, kindness does not sell.
There are those who want us to hear about it, for no other reason than to make us feel good...give us hope.
My good friend Amy is one of those people. So, let's get involved, let's let us all show kindness to another. Drop by her blog and sit back, relax, and enjoy a smile and see that kindness does still exist!!
Click the pretty button below to stop in...tell her Tracy sent ya!
Blessings to all!!
Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day. ~Quoted in P.S. I Love You, compiled by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
I think it has to do with how it happened, a freak accident. So not fair. She was a vibrant woman with so many more things to do, plays to be in, movies to make. She had a very loving husband and two handsome teen sons. I think I respected her so due to low-key attitude. You never heard the tabloids going after her marriage to Liam Neeson. They were not the media chasers that so many are. They kept a private life, yet had a wonderful public life. That is so very rare these day with 'stars'.
She was from a fabulous family of great actors, yet did not use it to make her way. She was such a 'lady'. And 'ladies' are so hard to find now-a-days in our female 'stars'.
I really am tired of hearing, "It was just her time." I really hate hearing that. Why, why was it her time? Why not the people in prison for doing heinous things? Why was it her time? There is no good reason that it was her time. What it is, it is a terrible tragedy, a freak accident that should not have happened.
I send blessings and my healing thoughts to her family and those who loved her. I pray she rests in Peace.
God speed Natasha!
Because I could not stop for Death, He kindly stopped for me. The Carriage held but just ourselves And Immortality~Emily Dickinson
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
It is raining a bit today. I love the rain. Hopefully it will rain alot and snow so we can get out of our drought problem. I do love the smell after a rain. Clean!
Still trying to wrap my head around those who chose to keep things going instead of moving on. It takes so much more energy to be angry and spiteful then it does to let go and move on. I think some people thrive on the anger. Seems kind of sad to me. I was there once and trust me, it is not good for the soul. Also hate the 'behind the back' talking. If I have something to say, I'll say it to you, not somewhere you cannot defend your opinions or actions. Life is too short, and with my MS I cannot do toxic. Oh well, if that is how others can get through their day, then to each his/her own. Time for me to move on from it I'm thinking...
Peace and Blessings to you all!
We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. ~Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere's Fan, 1893
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
I just finished doing the dishes and have some more soaking. Drinking an iced coffee from Shock Coffee. Their coffee is the best...extra caffeine. Just what I need.
I want to shut out to my gurl Amers and say I am so happy that Brian is home for a bit!! Loved all the pics. Of course I cried looking at them all!! lol Miss you sweetie! Call me when he leaves. And you know, tell him thank you from me!! Huggzz to you all! If you want to see who Amers is drop by her site here: http://inthesilentranks.blogspot.com/
Well time for me to actually get to what I said I was going to do. lol The coffee is hitting me! Woo hoo diddly do!
Peace and blessings to all!!
For Brian (ty for all you do):
If you are ashamed to stand by your colors, you had better seek another flag. ~Author Unknown
Monday, March 2, 2009
My mind is awake and wants to get moving on making some new jewelry and un-cluttering some things. My body just will not cooperate. So I end up just wasting the day away. How do you motivate? How do you say, 'Get the fuck up and move already!' lol I used to be so good at doing that too. Lately it is as if I just do not care much anymore. What's the point.
Then there is all the drama on the net. I tend to always get caught up in it. It is my own fault as I know you cannot please everyone all the time. I figure there are those who need the drama, those who start the drama, and those that try and end the drama. It seems when I try and end the drama, I end up the 'bad guy'. My opinion on that...WHATEVER!
Toxic is as toxic does...and I do not need toxic.
I am off (3pm) to TRY and get something done. lmao
Peace out and Blessings to all!!
True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable. ~Dave Tyson Gentry (to my mini-me, Kat)
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Saturday, February 28, 2009
OMG, it hit last night badly. I tried everything even a hit off something, lol and that did not even work! Wowzers, talk about pain. It just now, finally went away.
So, since I know why they are happening again, it's time to stop.
The hubz and I went on a non-gluten, no cow dairy, no soy, no soda way of eating. I lost 20 pounds, no migraines, no intestinal problems, and more energy. Well we got lazy in the new year and went back to eating like most people. lol I/we gained back our weight, migraines came back, bad intestinal problems resurfaced, and the fatigue hit.
So, I am proof eating the 'right' way helps.
No supplements, soy, pills, low fat, low calorie items work people!! Once you stop them the weight and issues all some back. Sugar substitutes are poison for our bodies. Think about it, these things are all changed, processed. Do you really think our bodies were made for this?
People have laughed at us, but I am the one laughing as I watch them do their 'diets'...see no weight loss there. lol
Our bodies were made to eat food, real food. We need fats, we need proteins. But, the 'diet' industry wants money so you hear how gr8 it is for you. Go ahead, do it, then go off and eat good foods, real foods and see what happens. Weight comes back, and so you pay more for the 'diet' crap.
Having a healthy diet, not 'dieting' is the way to go.
Now, knowing what it had done for me, we are starting back up on the paleo way of eating again. I cannot wait to lose my weight and become healthier again.
Chemicals, n: Noxious substances from which modern foods are made. ~Author Unknown
Friday, February 27, 2009
Shelby just didn't want to go as she was packed with homework and Ashley was still not feeling well from her sickies this week. So, after my shower and getting ready...we never went!! At least I smell better now!! :P
Hubz and I went shopping since he had gotten off work early for it, we decided not to waste the evening. Got all of our Saturday grocery things out of the way. So it was not a total loss.
So, today I will watch all my dvr'd shows, maybe make some new jewelry for my shop, and just rest.
Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars. ~Les Brown
Thursday, February 26, 2009
My girls are getting academic awards tonight, and i am still sitting here in my pj's. I need to get up and get in the shower and get ready. Part of me hates going due to the fact I feel like an embarrassment to my kids. They do not make me feel this way, it is all me. I really do not know why I feel like this. I have never cared much what others think of me, yet being in a wheelchair changed that. Being 6' tall I always walked into a room with a purpose, now I want to be invisible. Again, that is so not me.
Rog said if I don't feel well then it is ok if I do not go. The problem is I feel ok, I just do not want to go. But, knowing how bad my girls want me to go, I will. I really hate these feelings as I am a pretty sttrong woman and hate feeling ...wow I cannot even explain how I feel or a word for it. Pathetic maybe!! lmao I hate feeling pathetic.
OI Vay, sometimes life can stink. lmao Yet, I am still glad to be alive!!
Quote: Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain. ~Author Unknown
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Got my guitar out and i am once again going to try and play. I had put it away as my hands are not strong enough anymore to push on strings. I figure even the strumming is ok for me, so back to trying again. I played in college and loved it, so going to get a couple books and try and play again. Guitar is the best sound in the world.
I am loving my new van. I have even gotten out a couple of times on my own. It was so very cool. I can only drive on days i feel really good and when my legs are strong. We are going to look into hand controls as well. I really do not want to lose my driving ability. I love driving!! It gives me a sense of freedom that has been taken away from me.
Well, time to get ready to go to the grocery store with the hubz. That is if i can get him moving!!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Got the van and i loooove it. I purchased a carfax for it, and there are no 'bad' things about it.
Now, I need to get my van sold. I am going to miss it too. I loved that van! I got new plates for it yesterday and purchased a carfax for those interested in it. I think it will go fast. (hoping) It is in gr8 condition and leather, CD, a/c, removable back seats, seats 7, captain seating. No dents. I take care of my cars.
I am going to get it detailed, carpets shampooed, etc.
Dexter, my new puppy, is so cute. He is the best company for me when i am alone. He thinks he is so tough. I love when he barks at people. It's like, dude they could kick ya like a football!! lol But, he's smart... when he barks he hides behind me!!
Quote: It is the trouble that never comes that causes the loss of sleep. ~Chas. Austin Bates
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
But, on a brighter side…I got my new wheelchair.
I love it.
Then wouldn’t you know it, there are no ramps that will work with my van. To be on tha back on a lift, it would be to heavy for my cars chassis. For a side ramp that is automatic it costs 7000.00, more than my car is worth. So needless to say I had a meltdown.
My dad and hubz talked and instead of putting back the money from the iBot fiasco, I am getting a new van. Well not new, but handicap accessible.
It’s a 2005 Chrysler Towne and Country Touring. I so wanted to not have to drive a van anymore, but we do what we gotta do!! lol It has leather interior and the guy is putting in a DVD player for me. My kids will now have to all sit in the back. This way they not kill each other on long trips! lol The best part is no financing!! He gave me a wicked deal~~phew!!
I am hoping that this will be the end of my wheel-chariot issues! lol It is a long time coming.
I progressed a bit more during my last flare up, so this van is coming at a good time for me. The gentleman is also going to bring it to me. So that is a plus!!
Blessings to all!!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
But, I'm thinking it is my bodies way of saying slow the frick down. Chill for a bit and rest and sleep. The dizzies are just no-med freebies. lol
The bright side...my 4 mo old puppy Dexter 'Killer' Morgan Radford:
He is the sweetest thing. He is so smart and such a good boy. He is a chihuahua mix of some sort. I swore I would never have a 'YIP' dog! lol I swore off 'lap' dogs...but oops, now I have one. He is so tiny. I call him my mini-pit. I swear his mommy must have had relations with a red nose pit. lol Can you imagine!? I got him from Halfway to Home Dog Rescue. How could anyone not want this baby? Oh well, their loss is my gain. He is such a cuddler too.
Anywho, getting a tad dizzy again, so I am off.
I joined that twitter place thing, name mztracy. Original eh! lol
Blessings to all..
Quote of the day: Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing. ~Redd Foxx
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Today I go see my neuro. Hubz company changed prescription cos. and medical coverage...yet again. So have to get new scrips and a check-up for my MS. I so hate going to the doctor. YUCK! lol
Then...my iBot goes away today. Chuck, the iBot rep, is coming to day with my money (show me the money!! lol) and to pick up the chair. I am quite sad about this as the chair is awesome!! But, for that kind of money, it is not worth the chance of it breaking down and no one to fix it. So, buh bye iBot.
My new chair will be here in a week or so. I wanted it special order items on it. High back black seat baby!! lol It does not do all the things the iBot can do, but it is cool looking.
Well, time to get ready for my day. Remember, hug your kids tightly and tell them you love them every day.
Blessings to all...
Saturday, January 3, 2009
I am still awaiting the iBot people to come pick up the chair and refund my money. I am quite sad as the chair is pretty awesome. But, after what the iBot gentleman told me I'm not so impressed anymore. I just hope and pray that those who do have them, have no problems.
I know that in a few years there will be another company that will make this type of chair again. I bet it will be better made and less expensive. I will await the day.
I am getting my new chair any day now, and it is pretty cool. It can go up 3 inches or so and go on grass, etc. That was my biggest concern due to my kids soccer games and such.
So far things are going well here. I am back on trying to exercise with my motorized pedaler and arm weights. I will make no resolutions as I never follow them. lol But, I will try my best to keep at it.
Quote of the day: We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day. ~Edith Lovejoy Pierce
Blessings to all....